Monday, March 28, 2005

Cursed Wood
The way you hung from a tree,
Tongue lolling out for everyone to see.
Guts spilt to the ground
From your stomach so very round.

I'm quite sure you heard voices,
little whispers that didn't have faces.
"Take the rope and tie it round your neck,
while there's nobody looking behind your back!"

Just a little higher then, make your jump -
I know its scary, just listen to your heart pump.
In a short while it will all be over,
While there is hell to pay later, forever!

What drove you to such madness
That you seeked death instead of forgiveness?
Friend, zealot, betrayer -
Judas, what were you thinking I wonder?
GG Terri
Starving to death isn't a really pleasant way to go :(

Went abseiling with the boys last Saturday, unfortunately the rain put a damper on proceedings and only half of them managed to finish the course. Dr. Yap was kind enough to promise a second outing next month - man, I didn't even know the place existed! Interesting experience, the 19 of us disturbing mozzies from their slumber and appetite.

Also noticed that some of the boys do not give two hoots about the environment - either that or its the lack of rubbish bins in the vicinity that made it all the more convenient to leave rubbish anywhere and anytime they like it.

Had a good, long sleep last night. Did wake up in the middle of the night after some disturbing dreams, but other than that everything's cool. Been raining daily the past few days, thank God.

There are tons of stuff that needs to be attended to. I wonder how can I fit in the S-shaped block without any L's or Long ones? :(

As for Terri Schiavo..well. What can I say. Nazis Michael & Felos has got hell to pay!

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

PKZip
I did a search on Wikipedia and found out that the creator of PKZip died of alcohol poisoning o_0 *tsk* I guess he must have been filled with the wrong kind of spirit :P Excuse my tardiness in reporting news that saw print when the Y2K bug was making its rounds though :/

Nose's been leaking like a faucet the past few days. Damn. All the local remedies of bitter tea and cooling stuff like bananas didn't seem to help. And I seem to be experiencing the impossible - I'm having trouble moving my bowels. What comes out doesn't correspond with the input. I've been having farts that are soooo killer that I've been classified as a biological weapon Stateside :(

Never have I accomplished so little by surfing so much - its random page jumping in Wikipedia nowadays :( Can't wait for the new offices to open so that there's more activity pushed my way. Either that or I'm viewed as incompetent thus having tasks being delegated to my colleagues ;)

So many things to do - the heaviness of my bones wearies me. Damn you, phleg! Damn you!

"We would worry less about what others think of us if we realised how seldom they do. And don't worry about the world coming to an end today. Its already tomorrow in Australia."
Err...
Watched Ray over the weekend. Pretty interesting movie, glad to see that his fiercely choleric mom has made an impact on him so many years after her death. A self-made man :) Another movie that I'm looking forward to would be every geek's wet dream, Episode III! General Grievous is the bomb!

Sky's cloudy today. Hopefully it'll rain this evening. Heavily, I might add :)

Had a revelation yesterday after service. What can I say, Goddoesn't confuse his young 'uns :)

Sneezed some blood today, guess my body's been really heaty lately. Damn the inability of the body to conform to the mind! I guess not exercising for 1 1/2 months has brought about this lower tolerance to bugs and all the nasty stuff. Or could it have anything to do with the fact that I haven't been socially drinking? *gasp*

Met up with Wen Jia a couple of weeks ago, I do admit I didn't recognize her at first! Of course I managed to follow logic after realising the way she smoked her stick-o-death. Had a dinner where she disappointed me coz she ate so little :(

Penny Arcade's strip today was really funny. I guess lining up for some game or console release is something that only happens in Europe or the States. You don't see anyone lining up for X-Boxes or PS2s or GCs here. There just isn't any critical mass I guess :/ PSP's looking sweet, but at $250 a pop, its kinda out of reach. I'd rather watch movies in the comfort of my living room instead of disrupting the storyline flow everytime I have to change trains at the LRT. Sides, I'm a Ninty fanboy :P

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

Frickin' Hot
Rained heavily last night and yet the mercury is being pushed really hard today :( Wen tot Popular on Sunday but still could not find Nick's book - Nick, if you're reading this, when is the first batch coming to Malaysia?! Either that or the Popular at Tesco doesn't stock it.

Anyhows.

Had another bout of self-examination and questioning the past few days. The burning urge is strangely missing. Where's the heart to do things, I enquire of myself. The strong siren call of self-discipline. Awake, body!

Colleague's going down to Sepang this weekend for some F1 goodness. Told her to bring lots of sunblock and water as well, luckily she got the grandstand tickets (which Nael overslept for back in 2002 :P). Finished WarioWare yesterday albeit in a dishonourable fashion - I used the quicksave on the emulator ;) Fantastic game!

What can I contribute to society? What can I do for the people around me at the moment? Must I be fully equipped, or should I take the first step forward to remove the fog of war?

I already know the answers. I just fail one too many times to get up and fight. Dirt between my fingernails and recurring bruises - there's something about the pain that makes me try just one more time.

One more time! :(

Friday, March 11, 2005

Fayester
Give this link some love! Offer valid only good for today, but in case you missed it, just look for Artist Name - Li Faye and Song - Remember.

Thursday, March 10, 2005

Rakyat
Hi there. I'm an ordinary rakyat. No Government sponsored trips for me, no nubile young things dressed in kebayas that greet me at the airport with an entourage of kompang boys and bunga mangga. State owned Perdanas are out of the picture, no one opens my doors for me, no honorary titles.

Yes sir, I'm just one of the 23 million rakyat, milling around Malaysia - and contributing to the coffers of a bunch of rotting cesspool of vacant cerebrums. Wow, so many 'ofs'. Poor writing skills. A RM40 million development project that consists of 10 bungalows (with their own respective swimming pools) in order for the state excos to have a place to stay and hold meetings more conveniently?

Something's very wrong here, and I can't quite put my finger on it. Could it be we, the rakyat, that got ourselves into this mess? Or is this just another textbook case of misplaced trust? Only God knows the intention of those in power - they are still accountable at the end of the day. Unfortunately for me, I'm too impatient to see justice served myself - that is, until I die to myself.

I think one of the biggest problems in this world is relativity. I'm not trying to put down Einstein's brilliant work, but it is more of a character and principles issue. If everyone were to practise a set of principles that are relative - the very words one uses to vindicate himself can also be applied to the most heinous of criminals. How do we know that murder is wrong? Why do we feel a sense of inborn injustice whenever we see the poor being mistreated and abused? Would something as cruel and false as the evolutionary theorem give birth to something noble? Logic dictates otherwise. We must have received this innate sense of righteousness from the one who created us. Look upwards to God :)

OK this ain't gonna be some preachy entry, but more of a mindful discussion. When there are a certain set of rules to play by in life, we either go along with it or break ourselves against it. I'm doing my very best at the moment but the fleshly part of me fails oh-so-often.

What is right? What is wrong? What is good? What is evil?

You want to know what's really evil? Look no further than WarioWare MicroGame$! That's a real killer, with 200 over microgames of not longer than 5 seconds each. Madness! It is as if they've packed a whole bunch of compressed Hyper Bishi Bashi Championship on the GBA itself :D

p.s. I know its a very old game but still! Gems and classics should never be overlooked :P

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

5 dollar...you like, you buy!
Scene: /me walking to an elevator. A couple of male Elevator Attendants (EA for short) was there, white gloves and all.

EA1: Sir, let me open the door for you.
EA2: *smiles*
Me: Thank you.

*DING* /me steps into elevator.

EA1: My friend, he like you. You like?
EA2: *giggles*

Elevator door closes, with beads of sweat rolling down.

Thursday, March 03, 2005

Keretroan
Just busted a couple hundreds on my car's bearings :( Pesky sent me a piece of highly disturbing news from Spong. Has Ninty lost it? Sad case if it were to be true.

Acquired Mario Pinball Land, Final Fight One, Racing Gear Advanced and Street Fighter Alpha 3 ROMs today, Mario Pinball Land's super deliciously lookin'. You guys should go have a look at it...but the emu running SFA3 seemed too slow to run it...animation's great though when I just leave it alone. Almost. Perfect.

Got my pride in the way yesterday when I realised that I had done my best in a particular situation, but the other person's partial to an incomplete picture :| Buried it and all, will get that behind me tonight as I guide Cody, Guy, and Haggar (he's got this hot daughter Jessica in her pixelated glory lol) through the nefarious streets of Metro City!

Haggar vs Zangief - who'd win?

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

Curtain Falls
Weeping Girl had no clue,
Always full of ballyhoo.
With a word and a half,
She smote my character in her huff.

Her priority never was investigation -
Preferring instead to lean on accusation.
Justice will be served, so it has been said
Does it come in a dish, or knocked into one's head?

Look! A couple of marbles rolling on the floor
(I've got my head screwed on tight)
"Whose are these?" I ask, walking to the door.
There she was, claiming them in the morning bright.

What a day! Sure, words aren't cheap. They're expensive. If you don't believe me, go see a doctor ;) Those ostriches with their heads buried deep in the hot desert sands had best take a peep every now and then, since a confused mind rarely produces coherent action. Why belakang mari when you can always tackle the bull by the horns?

Downloaded my first ever GBA Emulator (yes, I know I'm slow), can't wait to get started on Final Fantasy TactiXXX! w00t!

OK maybe I made a mistake, ostriches don't live in the desert lol!
pr0n
Was talking to preachies just now, and we spoke nerd. The conversation ranged from phones to the GBA SP, and I was extolling to her the virtues of Final Fantasy Tactics when I realised that I've stumbled upon a gold mine.

Imagine our singlet-wearing, armpit scratching, tattooed brethren peddling DVDs to unsuspecting, wholesome families.

"Ahhhh brader, this one best! Different angles one! Sure works better than Viagra!". A disgusted look, followed by the brushing of spittle from the sleeve is a possible response.

Of course, who'd give a second look at titles such as "Deep Throat" or "Miss Ho's Extra Classes"?

I say Final Fantasy TactiXXX. You've the word 'Fantasy'. You've got the mandatory 'XXX'.

Ultimately, you've spoken nerd to the masses. Nerd and porn, unified in Joe Public for once. Word!

Tuesday, March 01, 2005

Well
"Why do you do this to me?", she asked, in between sobs. "Am I always in the wrong?"

I fidgeted with the buttons on my left sleeve. It was then my attention turned to the sporadic spread of lint on my shirt. Strange, I've already cleared up the lint filter - is the washing machine is starting to break down on me (just like the rest of my world)? My thought was interrupted by a fresh torrent of tears. There was a sharp pain in my hand, as the tissue I held and offered met the counterpart of a woman scorned.

"If you loved me, you wouldn't have done that? And the words you used, are you treating me as an object? A problem to be solved?"

More hysterical wails followed.

This was getting out of hand, I told myself. A perfectly nice evening had met the opposite end in the wee hours of dusk. Feeling uncomfortable, (who wouldn't in a public place?) I opened my mouth. Poetry and prose capable of melting the coldest hearts of women swam in my head, but none escaped my breath. I stood there like a fool, with a gaping jaw.

Perhaps, in another life, in another time, things would have turned out differently. Would I have ended up in the same situation with the foreknowledge? My lips took stock of the situation, and moved congruently to the words that came out. Every sinew and nerve worked in tandem to deliver the perfect facial expression - there can be no mistake in a moment so crucial such as this. A misplaced intonation, an unspoken word, the batting of an eyelid, I would have lost my everything to the dealer.

As I turned away, a warm feeling overcame me. The tears of regret flowed down freely. It doesn't matter now the rented suit is ruined, as my heart was torn asunder by the folly of a fool.

****************************************************************************

"Why do you do this to me?", she asked, in between sobs. "Am I always in the wrong?"

My eyes wandered around the room. I am being stared at by the couple behind the bar. The man was probably assuming what happened, and rendering his version of my situation in the juiciest manner possible to his partner. I avoided eye contact (as always).

"Focus!", I told myself. I looked at her eyes. They lacked the youthful vigour she once - no, we once had. It was the very window to her soul. So what they say is true. Our gaze held for the briefest of moments, before a curtain of tears covered the jewels that I still covet.

"If you loved me, you wouldn't have done that? And the words you used, are you treating me as an object? A problem to be solved?"

More hysterical wails followed.

An exact opposite to the start of a perfect evening. How does one salvage a situation such as this? Flowers and chocolates don't do the situation any justice, I thought. There was only one thing I could do. I could listen. Carefully. To her expressions - those spoke more than all the words she bawled this evening.

I held her close to me tightly, like a vise. The tears of regret flowed down freely. It doesn't matter now the rented suit is ruined, as two fools were locked in an embrace of forgiveness. No words were needed, just touch. The touch that sends tingles down one's spine. A gentle sway of the legs in tandem stifled the sniffles, as her sobbing became less frequent. The dance of disagreement had ended, now let the Tango of Hearts begin.
Ditzy!
I slammed the alarm. Its incessant ringing had awoken me, and the choice of getting up to do some warm-up stretches lingered on my mind for all but a couple of seconds, and an extra hour of slumber never did anyone harm.

Its really tough getting up and about without an exercise partner. Ever since CNY, my self-discipline in that aspect has eroded. Hot dang! Should I start a running diary? Does anyone know how much a pedometer costs in Malaysia? I guess if I had the benefit of an MP3 player, I'd be up and about without much trouble, since its a no-brainer when it comes to running while listening to your favourite tunes. No burung murai chirping, thank you very much. All one needs are Oakey & Company, with the occasional OSTs.

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